Egregoros

I would celebrate at 6 months instead of the actual day tbh.

Plus, my birthdays are not a date i look forward to. Just a reminder im alone and time slips through my fingers

It’s a gift not everyone gets, to age. 🙏

Maybe. But for me its another year where i achieve nothing

Well, I pray you gain a more positive outlook. 😊

Probably not. I can still join a monastery if i get in. And if nothing, i will kill myself when i hit 60.

Better to kick the bucket on my own terms than become a useless old fart

Killing yourself is never an answer. It’s a defeat.

Im a failure. It would be fitting

>I'm a failure
No your not. I think you are awesome and I'm happy to have you as my Friend Morghur. 🤗

Sorry, but i truly think i disappoint most people i come across. Sure, im not perfect but i still think it

You don't disappoint me Morghur. I enjoy seeing you everyday.

You may say that, but tbh i think you just do it to not be mean to me.

I think the same with other people

Nah. I really mean it Morghur. I'm sorry your feeling this way today. 😔

Tbh i feel like that most of the time
Its just... That i either came to terms with it or i dont care. I just suspect most people lie to me when they praise me since i know im not good

@Morghur @FiestaBun @CozyNCD @missjanedoe
They kind of thinking is what got me in a ruthless that lasted almost 10 years.
Drinking bottom shelf vodka from a plastic bottle, in an apartment I was managing in McKeesport.

"Why bother trying I already failed"

"I'm bat at everything I attempt"

I know I can't convince you but those thoughts will rob you of so many years

me too. I don't like talking about it but I used to be in a VERY dark place, deep depression, suicidal thoughts. I used to just sit in bed and daydream about stepping in front of traffic. But God got me through. I am still here and I am glad I am. Life is beautiful, and a blessing.

I have moments like that. But when i reflect in the big picture of life i just despair because im a big fuckup in general. Success always eludes me since it looks like i never can get a break in my creative efforts no matter how hard i try

@Morghur @FiestaBun @CozyNCD @missjanedoe

You have to make your own break. It only happens randomly to a few people, you need to keep putting out books no matter how low the numbers are

So i just keep throwing garbage at the wall and hope something gets through?

Dunno tbh. With how little attention i get i dont even know if thats possible

@Morghur @FiestaBun @CozyNCD @missjanedoe
Literally yes, what do you think under the ring is?

Well then, i will keep posting my retarded lore. There are still a couple hundred pages left of it btw

@Morghur @FiestaBun @CozyNCD @missjanedoe post all of them. Keep writing. Making myself do a weekly strip has helped me a lot

@CozyNCD @FiestaBun @Morghur @missjanedoe 😌🤝🏻😌🤝🏻😌

@Morghur @FiestaBun @missjanedoe My birthday is a celebration that another year has passed where jews haven't been able to get me

With me it would barely make a difference since my only 2 friends are too busy with work when its not the holidays