My recent theological adventures do 🐝 triggering an overwhelming amount of sorrow and regret for remembering how wretched a person I really am. When Peter denied Christ, that's literally me dude. The prodigal son's return, I'm literally him. The parable of the talents, I do 🐝 trying to get the 💰 but I'm probably going to end up like the servant that losses everything because I just suck at everything I attempt.
The entire Book of Job, except Job never denied God so that makes him a better man than me.
I genuinely am a horrible person, to say otherwise is a lie. My friends I rely on betray me which is good because I probably deserve it Apostatizing eight years ago. But it's okay because God actually loves me and thinks I'm worth redeeming so it's all good in the end.